Acceptance

I have always had challenges with relationships, I always held on to the belief that I was just misunderstood and that whomever was my partner at the time was unable to accept me fully as I was. Although some truth may lie in that, I now am completely aware that it was I that did not accept me.

I have been in a new relationship for a year now and I was still caught up in the same old belief, you know that inner fear base voice that says “You are unacceptable, therefore unlovable”. So it is no surprise that my new relationship is in conflict. What you believe you are is reflected back in your everyday circumstances. As The Law of Attractions teaches, like attracts like.

Last night in bed I was just meditating and as student in A Course in Miracles we are taught to listen to that part of you that is connected to Source, the Course calls it the Holy Spirit, some call it inner wisdom, others the light within, or Spirit, whatever you want to call it has no importance, what is important is to become aware of that part inside you that Loves You unconditionally.

So as I was meditating on my relationship and asking my inner guide why was this happening, why was I suffering again?  As I was talking to my guide I was caught up with blaming my partner for not accepting me, and if only he would just change his ways everything would be alright. After weeks of meditation on this conflict with my partner, I had come to a point of complete surrender and this must be why I finally allow myself to listen to the wisdom of my guide.  In A Course in Miracles we are taught that with just a little willingness on our part the Holy Spirit can enter our mind and guide us to our true nature of pure unconditional love where we then allow our perceptions to be corrected.

  Whenever you allow yourself to chose love over fear you instantly find inner peace and the answers to your prayers are always given to you. My guide made me understand that I was unable to accept my partner’s behavior because I was unable to accept the part of me that I consider weak therefore unlovable.

For one brief instant I was given a Miracle, I choose Love over Fear and by doing so, I was given the opportunity to see my partner’s innocence instead of his guilt. As I became aware that by placing blame on him and not accepting his behavior was really only a reflection of what I was doing to myself. In one instant everything became clear to me, how could I ever accept another when I was unable to accept me?  How can I love another when I did not love me?

Intellectually I always knew this, after all years of self-help books did have an effect on my mind. However it is one thing to understand something intellectually but to wake up to that Self –realization is what enlightenment is all about, that is true understanding, a feeling of Knowing followed by a deep sense of peace.  This is the starting point of transformation. You can only change something once you are willing to see the Truth above everything else.

I can now honestly say that I am at a point in my life lessons where I can start to really truly accept myself in all my glory. When you accept your darkness, you finally allow your Light to step forward and shine brightly.

Accepting yourself is a life long journey with many inner struggles, but when you finally give up the resistance and let the Love that is deep inside you envelop you with forgiveness and compassion and allow it to flow easily  and embrace yourself in gentleness, you free your Spirit to  become all that Love created you to be.

Choose Love always!

Namasté

Cynthia  Orlando

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